i am a paranoid schizophrenic in my own entourage!

mal500 @ 2005-03-10T16:52:00

2005-03-10T14:55:57Z

afrobeat if you haven't added yet.

all nice folks involved with the movie site, read our email - we are up and running again! :)

my site has (almost) daily updates

i shall delete this journal as i proceed.

mal500 @ 2005-02-16T12:28:00

2005-02-16T10:29:02Z

afrobeat add me if you want i delete this shit some day.

ps. i still do like comments.

# 57

2005-02-15T13:02:12Z

On a long enough timeline, the survival rate for everyone drops to zero.

this journal makes me bored. if i'd continue writing i'd explaining myself to myself and no one would get that. it is time to enjoy this freedom & amazing energy that surrounds me. anyway i have a new journal with complitelly different consept ( wtf no ego? is that possible?! ) i shall put the username here some day soon and leave it to you if you want to add. bloody fever makes me paranoid.

It's only after you've lost everything that you're free to do anything.

# 53

2005-02-05T09:26:16Z

marriage protection

# 50

2005-01-30T13:54:39Z

grand openning

# 47

2005-01-25T08:03:07Z

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

# 46

2005-01-24T16:41:18Z

looked out of the window an hour ago:

hmm i wonder how it will turn out

i still need couple of rock'n'roll devoted persons..

# 44

2005-01-22T15:56:34Z

i need people who love rock music and have time in their hands!

we'll start a rock'n'roll revolution!

reply with your email information and tell me the rock genre you mostly listen!

(btw the movie one is on its way)

# 43

2005-01-19T16:22:32Z

no star wars questions this time, hahah!!

give me more good communities!!

# 42

2005-01-18T18:33:16Z

The Great LiveJournal
Outage of 2005

During the outage I discovered there is another room, with a blue ceiling and a funny yellow light in it.

What did you do?

Brought to you by geek-foo

recommend me communities to join!

# 41

2005-01-18T13:27:44Z

nobodywantsyourfilm.com

go. now.

# 39

2005-01-12T11:05:44Z

"People who are thinking of switching will have no more excuses," he said. "It's the newest and most affordable Mac ever."

nice. hopefully my ibook arrives soonish!

edit:
mr. blacwell is right: jessica and ashlee simpson on the worst dresses list
"These two prove that bad taste is positively genetic"

# 36

2004-12-26T09:56:20Z

Killer quake floods Asia

Strong Quake Hits SE Asia, Tsunami Kills Dozens

once again mother earth took everyone by suprise. very unfortunate.

# 35

2004-12-24T16:46:33Z

Are You a Goth?

You know you're a goth if...

1. You have so much fetish gear in your room that your landlord nearly threw you out on suspicion of running a brothel.
2. You navigate across your town centre not by street names but by reference to fetish shops, tattoo artists and bizarre clothing shops.
3. Your cat has a pierced tongue.
4. You keep writing to the Ordnance Survey asking them to move the Meridian Line from Greenwich to Whitby.
5. You were recently surprised to discover that some people put their dog collar on a dog.
6. You have been experimenting with different food types in an attempt to discover a way to turn your urine black. (HAHAH!!)
7. You berate fellow goths for not being goth enough because they once looked at something white.
8. You own far more Anne Rice novels than is absolutely necessary.
9. You once entered therapy in an attempt to become depressed. (HAHAH!)
10. You were once in a pantomime version of Treasure Island, and entertained the audience with a charming rendition of Yo Ho Ho and a Bottle of Rum (Cradle of Filth remix).
11. You are trying to develop a piece of technology that scientifically determines whether a particular item is or is not goth.
12. You own so many pairs of fishnet tights that Cornish trawlermen regularly raid your wardrobe for fresh supplies.
13. You once made a complaint to your local branch of Tescos for not selling black lace toilet paper.
14. You keep getting arrested at airports because your piercings set off all the metal detectors.
15. You own a pair of platform shoes with heels so high that you keep getting near-misses from low-flying aircraft.
16. Whenever you see a cemetery, you inwardly curse all the dead people for being inherently more goth than you.
17. Your credit card is often rejected by shops because you signed it “The Reverend Celator Majestyk.”
18. You tried to divorce your little brother/sister for liking S Club 7.
19. You have dyed your hair so many times that you’re no longer sure what your original hair colour was.
20. You are convinced that double glazing must be inherently goth because it contains PVC.
21. You can recite the entire script of The Crow off by heart, and tried to keep a real-life crow in your room until you got reported to the RSPB.
22. You have only just discovered that lipstick can be found in colours other than black.
23. You take the view that anyone who spends less than two hours doing makeup before leaving the house just isn’t trying.
24. You once took part in a satanic ritual, and nearly shat yourself when the window cleaner banged on the window during the Raising of Lucifer.
25. You use so many candles that the local airport uses your bedroom as a navigation beacon.
26. You use so much white face powder that when you last went to Dover you were perfectly camouflaged against the cliffs.
27. When you give birth, you try to get the obstetrician to give the baby a bellybutton ring as she severs the umbilical cord.
28. You wear black PVC pyjamas to bed.
29. Each morning you say a prayer to the sacred deity Marilyn Manson.(???)
30. You keep getting thrown out of cinema screenings of old Hammer films for cheering on the vampire.
31. You got fired from your job as a casino croupier for dealing tarot cards to the blackjack players.
32. You dismiss almost every other goth you know as being "not a proper goth" while they in turn dismiss you and each other as "not a proper goth".
33. You live in Bristol. Why is every fucker in Bristol a goth?

this was fooking funny!

# 34

2004-12-23T17:26:12Z

Cocoa has more phenolic phytochemicals and a higher antioxidant capacity than teas and red wine.

Chocolate sweet for the heart, research shows
Confection may lower blood pressure, improve circulation

Bioavailability and antioxidant activity of tea flavanols after consumption of green... (abstract here)

and the last but defiantelly not the least:

it says merry christmas!

# 33

2004-12-22T12:13:49Z

this season i won't be sending out any christmas cards, however i'd like to take a moment here and thank everyone who has send one for me: thank you!

this is my contribution for the christmas, a song:
download xmas.mp3. probably no one gets it hahaha! and yes my voice is heavily sampled!

my site has a new layout and a working tag board. use it.

(edit: the link should work now, does it work?)

# 32

2004-12-19T16:16:06Z

now everybody goes to mal @ tragedia
-> there's a new guestbook!

# 31

2004-12-18T09:23:10Z

am i the only one who is dying to see the phantom of the opera movie?

# 27

2004-12-12T18:35:51Z

and the shit continues.

i hope i am depressed because i can't do any sports and because i'm a bit scared. it feels as if i have screwed up everything. as if creative works takes more energy than what i have.

some people are getting offened on this but i think i don't have any friends on the level who could wake me up. anyone who would strong enough for that.

i'm a sad person. i need to go to see my doctor to get anti-depressants. that means i have the option of paying a lot for getting the pills or paying nothing and having too many meetings with a shrink. either way i should go because my addiction is waking up.

# 25

2004-12-10T16:26:45Z

mal.tragedia.org is working

# 24

2004-12-07T18:48:52Z

it seems that i need couple of cheap clocks so i can see what time it is in places that interrest me more than well my current location.

# 23

2004-12-06T10:43:08Z

tell me your website address if you want to get linked. i'm making a new laytout for my site. thank you!

# 22

2004-12-03T17:14:53Z

I am a street light shining

# 21

2004-12-01T15:02:49Z

# 19

2004-11-20T19:14:33Z

sometimes i'm afraid i'm liked only because of what i represent.
and do i represent anything but depression, illness and darkness?
i didn't think so.

sometimes i'm afriad i'm liked because of the image everyone
has created in their minds about me. images tend to be so wrong,
unless they are updated that is.